Everytime I take 10 steps forward i feel like i end up taking 20 steps back. Faith? I feel like I dont have that anymore. I try and look up to the heavens and ask God to show me a sign that everything is going to be okay but I feel like he ignores me and has left it up to me to find my way. I knw he will never leave me and always put me back on top but i just sit here and think , Damn when will this pain stop. Im tired of stressing, Im tired of caring, Im tired of loving and Im tired of struggling. I wish things could go back to how it was but I the trials and tribulations I go thru I knw itsthe way of life. I wish there was another way to go thru life but I guess its true.You are never able to appreciate up if you have never been down. Regarless my feelings I will still keep my head high and keep a smile on my face. I just pray eventually things will go my way…

Irrelevant people

If you are not a parent or somebody that I fuck with you have no say so in how I live my life or who I’m fucking. Its none of your business and I damn sure don’t have to explain myself to nobody unless I feel like I should. I know that everybody is not gonna agree with my lifestylee but who are you to sit and judge and tell me what Im doing is wrong well telling me who I choose to love. Me loving someone of the same sex as me is not hurting anybody so why do people feel that it is relevant to say anything. smh Im just really tired of people constantly saying shit bout how I go about my life. Im not in jail and im not hurting anyone so let me be.

Letting Go

It feels to let go of all the drama and all the bullshit. Life is full of disappointments because we are all human and sometimes we don’t do what we say we are going to do. If we all let go of the past and forgive the people that have hurt us the most. A lot of us would be able to have trust in someone and not be scared. Letting go of all the shit you have done has made me a better person and I’m finally happy. I refuse to let the anger from what you or anyone else has done to me influence how I live my life. You will no longer control me.